ibeenrunningonempty

'little tears, please go away' my favorite song for my night of tears every night i always hear the same beat of the clock's the blowing wind and my running tears today, i promise myself not to cry anymore right after i call you not for an end up but for a new beginning this will be my last poem of love at last i want to tell you what i feel about you we are the same you are so wrong when you say we are different because we have the same way of thinking when you say i am a liar then you are a liar when you say i am selfish then you are selfish when you say i am so mean then you are so mean when you say i am stubborn

love is something people don't need but to love you, is the only one i need i was so stupid for keeping myself away from you i was so stupid for not talking to you when we met but i didn't know i didn't know what do you want from me you told me you would love me the way i am just be myself to be loved but that was only a prologue a sweet prologue you had for me eventhough you knew you weren't my lover i'm forgiving myself for loving you now but i'm still asking why why it's you i wish it's somebody else not you but my heart's always pointing at you it tells me that you are the one you are the guy in my future i was try

i think of you every night can you feel me? i dream about you everytime i sleep do you see me in you dream? i imagine you everytime i feel bored do you do the same for me? i know you don't believe me anymore i know you don't trust me anymore i know you sick of me but i'm not telling you lies it's just so hard for me to be honest i don't wanna say the things i hate about you i don't wanna mention the bad things about you it's because i don't wanna miss one love from you i keep those things myself i'm not telling anybody except my other minds those unwanted feelings are in my heart revenge anger hatred sadness envy

you are my first love but i'm not yours you are my true love but again i'm not yours tears rain on me but i'm okay sadness covers me but still i'm okay i just wanna be the one the one in your heart the one and only one that you can never forget i'm not asking for a first love i'm not asking for a true love i just want you to love me as much as you can reach just be here with me is the best moment i have even if you are far i can feel that you are near please don't hate me for the things i've done please don't leave me for the bad things i did i love you more than anyone i'm just a little bitch with tears without you

i can feel you when you are here with me i wanna do those things you wish but in reality i do the things you hate please forgive me for not being honest to myself don't tell me that you hate me because i've known all the thoughts you have all the feelings you have all the disappointments you have about me i wish i could turn back the time with my own time machine i'd try to be the best and honest to myself you don't know how i feel how i feel about you about my first love my first love who dislikes me and to feel a broken heart when you say i'm not yours i hate myself for loving you, dear ©Mel 3/9/08

i am so hated i am refused from this life nobody likes me nobody wishes me to be here they dislike me they will never need me i claim myself a liar and i'll be burned in hell surrounded by the fire and nothing is going well ©Mel